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Well,

Todays been just fab!
Not!

I was doing absolutely fabb, ate nothing all day long. Came home still ate nothing
My family ordered a chinese. I had to eat it :( im getting so pissed off at my mum right now! Past 3 days she has made me eat dinner!!!!!!

I am now completely regretting throwing out those laxatives in my "self recovery" stint! Would have saved my life right now! I can't bring myself to purge anymore. I want to when i feel like this. But i cant, something stops me, it makes me cry duno why. I want to cry anyway.

I wish i could. Ive got no where to go and just cry!

Arghhh! Tomorrow, EASTER! Fuck! Pisses me off. I do not want eggs. They linger in my room. My mum calls me a squirrel cause i store it. I kinda like that.

I cannot see what im typing right now. Im on my iphone and i cant load a full screen it keeps scrolling up lol.

Anyway yeah easter, have to go to my cousins for a bbq. I would be able to get out of eating easily. If i hadnt had 3 meals with them already this week. Some reason why i didnt want all the food at each meal! One day i just had a bit of pasta and salad whilst everyone one had spagetti bolagneise (cant spell) then one day salmon and salad. Everyone else had cod and chips and whatever the ell else. Fucking soooo annoyed!!! Monday i am starting the skinny girl diet. I can do it easily if peopel can just leave me alonee!!!!

Hmmm i wonder how much i'll lose on the sgd :) hopefully at least 10lbs:)

I need to buy lax's actually maybe if i dont buy them i'll have more willpower.
Anyway i should go to sleep.

Night :)