Tuesday, 3 May 2011

Bleh

Argh

I don't get it, my bf he goes and gets himself a personal trainer... 3 weeks ago... he's been eating crap still, only exercising once a week and he loses a stone. SERIOUSLY!
i've been eating next to nothing and i've lost well... i did lose 5lbs but i've put 2 on... so woop deee dooo 3 measley little pounds! (I keep binginggg need to calm it down as from tomorrow although today i've done... okay) 

I'm happy for him i am, its a great achievement... it just makes me feel... hopeless.

As a reward though i'm buying him a new t-shirt :)

I need to set up my own rewards... hmm

I nearly purged today, got really angry about my disseration, I just sat there staring at the bathroom for a while, I restrained myself I hadn't even eaten anything, i was just panicked and angry. I hate me.

Anyway lets get back to rewards... seeing as i'm now 126lbs... again... i'll just do really small rewards

124lbs i get to do my own pedicure

122lbs bake some low fat macaroons

120lbs I'm allowed to buy a new top

118lbs Go swimming but just for the Jacuzzi and sauna :)

116lbs Buy the ice cream maker (for making frozen yogurt)

114lbs (i'll think of this later :))

112lbs New charm for my pandora bracelet

110lbs new bikini haha :)

ANywayy thats gona be expensiveee :) was looking at ice cream makers today, best cheap one i can find is a phillips one for £50 the other ones are all annoying looking and sounding :L 

and i'll shut up now :)

Night Stay Strong :) X

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